haunts

i can vividly recall the last moments that i spent with you while your blood was still warm and the air was graced by your presence.

strapped to a hospital bed with a myriad of tubes and wires, electrical and mechanical conduits in which life was breathed into your body.

every surface was washed out by halogen, i could almost taste the electroluminescence and electrons on my tip of my tongue that immediately radiate throughout my senses. the stark, sterile environment giving way as you cut into the cocaine white scenery while in bloom.

it is at this exact moment where i fall to pieces.

it is then i realize that i love you and losing you would create a rift in this wasteland of a world. that everything i thought i knew was wrong and rightfully so as i peered at the world through an imperfect lens comprised of kaleidoscopic stained glass.

i only saw what i wanted to see, and nothing more.

honestly, i love you.

when you left, i left, too.