halfsleep
we open our hands to the inviting calm
i cradle her head in my hand
we share butterfly kisses
her heart is not mine to mend
we open our hands to the inviting calm
i cradle her head in my hand
we share butterfly kisses
her heart is not mine to mend
a silent soliloquy in front of a clouded mirror
a often-recited rehearsal in the hopes to avoid your disappointment
another cigarette, a cold bed
another apéritif, unending lament
"this is not up for discussion," she said loudly with equal parts frustration and conviction.
all i can do is stare at her eyes as they shape-shift from bedroom to evil.
i imagine tracing her outline, a template in which i can create the perfect silhouette of her at any given moment. i make a valiant effort to remember the details of her gentle hands, flowing locks, fragile cheek bones and suggestive stature.
a temporary picture of an ideal, i commit this to memory before the lens is shattered by our sounds of disagreement and discontent.
she runs her delicate hands over my wrists and up my forearms, warmth radiating from her body and sincerity emanating from her virulent voice.
i remain motionless with downcast eyes.
it was easier to give in.
enwrapped in silence
creating barriers
i worry about
conversations we haven't had
your heart was the metronome in which my footsteps fell in line.
i strained to achieve synchronicity, only to reap nothing.